Life - The game of Uncertainty

As a teenager in late 90’s- I was so confused about life. Every bad thing that happened to me then,  was taken to the court of God (my hypothetical Place of ultimate justice), where I cried and complained and wished why don’t you kill me.

Now standing at the fag end of the year 2021 some odd 20 years later- I am praying and am gratified for each day that I survive.

If someone happens to ask me what is the most precious thing that I have today – that would be MY GOD DAMN LIFE.

So you must be wandering what made me a gratified one over the complaining one. The answer is – while fighting all the odd battles of life, is when I realized that- each battle I won or loss actually helped me to acquire the taste for life the taste for never giving up on life.

I remember post my graduation and first break up- I thought my life was doomed and I had to carry the baggage of life throughout. That moment I met random people, heard their stories (a quality I think I am blessed with - people are comfortable to open up to me). Some I dated and ditched. Some I gave console and in some I confided in. That tenure of almost 4 years then – made me nothing but wise learner, as I might prefer to see myself today.

I learnt there is so much chaos in every life. The happy smiling soul has electrified wires running within – yet they appear so perfect. Its then when it clicked me that if there is anything that can save me from being doomed any further is to take these lessons the damn live lessons of experience.

Lesson 1 – life has  its own set of challenges for each one – its we who choose how calmly we keep the game on

Lesson 2- the moment you cry over the past
– we set our own defeat mentally and in course of time it just replicates physically.

Lesson 3 – each moment, each situation and each one you come across in life, carries a lesson – its we , who has to learn the skill life wants to teach us.

Life has set up these wonderful set of teachers- we have to be the eager students using the Logic gates of life wisely.

Lesson 4- we have one eternal best friend and one eternal Competitor and that’s us ourselves.

Reason I share my story is –

i.                 I guess this will many like me to rationalize a lot of things happening or has have happened to them

ii.                Life is way too unpredictable – What if my experience heals, I don’t want it to be wasted without being shared.